Answers

I have found the answers

Long time ago

I didn't know back then it was so important to me

I thought it was just a stage

It was never a stage

I have solved the problem before I actually face the problem

Trying again

Compensating what have been lost

It's not easy.

But if you don't try, you'll never know

If you see what I see.

You would have choked to death by the truth and lies.

Uncertainty

Wrong is wrong, even if everyone is doing it.

Right is right even if no one is doing it.

But the important question that we might miss,

What is wrong?

And what is right?

Fate

I always wonder

How do people live with hiding the truth

From their own self

The truth that make themselves feel like a monster

When every single secrets of them that makes them, them

How did you lived a painful life that you had to lie to your own self?

A painful life that you had to turned your eyes blind

You can't blame God for what happened

At the same time, you simply just couldn't take it anymore

So, whose fault is that?

We asked ourselves as we desperately trying to survive

It's no one and everyone

Z

It's not love if I had to constantly compete.

It's not patience if our arguments always ended up us leaving each other.

It's not connection if we always had to guess.

It's not trust if you can't face me with your flaws.

It's not acceptance if we had to argue over the same issues for over a year.

We're both naive.

We're both just started to learn to love ourselves and each other.

We're both just trying to get rid of the pain that we felt.

We're both are still a child at heart.

Maybe we both catch ourselves at a very unfortunate time.

Maybe the circumstances doesn't favor us both.

For the good times, I will cherish it.

For the bad times, I will learn from it.

I hope someday you will find the kind of love that you have been searching for.

Littlest things and complex interactions that lead to something big, an ultimate.

Like the universe. The ultimate. Comprises of planets and galaxies and their contents.

And always, it appear like no limits, who knows.

For us to ponder His greatness.

For us to study His miracles.